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Saturday, April 4, 2020, Day 20, Week 3, of Self Isolation.

Global Cases 1,213,194
Global Deaths 65,600
UK Cases 41,903
UK Deaths 708

Another short one today. I’ve got my head down editing and polishing my story for the NYC Midnight Competition.

I’ve finished the first draft and sent it to a few friends for their initial thoughts. I’m not entirely happy with the ending.

Death rates keep rising. It’s almost incomprehensible to read these numbers and fully understand what they mean. A five year old boy has died now.

Keir Starmer has been elected as the new leader of the Labour Party. Not terribly important in the great scheme of things.

The weather forecast for the weekend in very good prompting lots of please from the government and on social media for people to stay indoors.

4000 inmates are going to be released early from prison because of the virus. Prisons are massive hotbeds for infection as well as struggling with staff shortages due to the sickness.

I rang a few folks. We went on a bike ride. I watched a bit of MasterChef.

We had Pizzas for tea to try and make it feel like a Saturday. We watched a slightly odd movie called The Killing of the Sacred Deer – not sure I would recommend it.

Home haircuts are becoming a thing. People are posting pictures of their efforts. Our daughter-in-law has pretty much shaved the heads of our son and grandson with the clippers. The wee one is a bit shy about his but they both look great! It could be the new badge of honour for surviving lockdown!

I keep my hair fairly short. It’s beginning to feel a bit thick and shaggy already. God knows what it will be like in another 10 weeks. I normally have it cut about every 6 weeks. By the time this is over it will be 16 weeks since my last cut!

Anyway, back to my story!

 

Friday, April 3, 2020, Day 19, Week 3, of Self Isolation.

Global Cases 1,133,767
Global Deaths 60,396
UK Cases 38,168
UK Deaths 684

It’s going to have to be a short post today as I’m now in Round 2 of the NYC Midnight competition! I have three days to wrote a story of up to 2000 words in the Drama genre, with an Injury theme and a character who is a Migrant. I have the idea, so just getting on with the writing now!

We slept in late again! Very unusual for us and especially me!

We finally got the call we wanted from the Respiratory Nurses and the GP and M has his Azithromycin prescription. I picked it up from the local chemist in the afternoon. Such a relief! If he continues with his physio and excersise now it should prevent him from getting another chest infection!

Usual routine, writing and reading in the morning and bike ride in the afternoon.

After the bike ride we took the car out for a short run – just to make sure it was still working! It’s been sitting on the drive for two weeks! It must be feeling very lonely and unloved.

Our daughter, F, left us a surprise package in the back garden when we were out. Donuts for M and pearl barley for me! Very exciting. M loves his donuts and often slips them in to his trolley when he goes shopping. But, they haven’t been on my isolation essentials shopping list. I think he must have been secretly reaching out to her to take pity on him. Ha! Ha!

The main news of the day is that with the death rate increasing we may be approaching the peak. Two young nurses and have died of the virus, leaving behind young families. The PM is still in isolation has he is still unwell.

We had our last mindful Chef meal for dinner, Korean Steak with Rice and Pickled Carrot.  We watched the last two episodes of Season 2 of Kingdom – the ending was a little disappointing – and the latest episode of Our Girl.

We’re running out of good things to watch!

As it was Friday, I allowed myself a lovely bottle of chilled Oyster Bay Sauvignon Blanc!

Right! Back to writing my short story!

 

 

Thursday, April 2, 2020, Day 18, Week 3, of Self Isolation.

Global Cases 1,018,920
Global Deaths 53,292
UK Cases 33,718
UK Deaths 569

Today the number of people who have tested positive for Covid-19 globally crossed the 1 million mark. The real number of infected is almost certainly many, many more.

The USA is seeing the biggest surge in numbers now, with the situation stabilising in Italy and Spain. Absolute numbers are obviously related to population size, and if we look at death rates per million population it gives a more accurate picture of how hard each country has been hit.

Deaths per million population:

Italy 230

Spain 221

Belgium 87

France 83

UK 43

Iran 38

Sweden 30

USA 18

Germany 13

China 2

I’ll just leave that there … lots of questions spring to mind …

We didn’t have a great nights sleep because M’s chest was bad. We’re learning the hard way that he must exercise vigorously every single day. The day before, we didn’t go out for a bike ride. I was resting my knee and M just didn’t get around to it.

As a result of being awake in the night we slept in late.

I rang my Mum, who is anxious about the fact that there is a case in their building. It’s one of those retirement, warden controlled apartment blocks and so it’s full of elderly people. It could be a disaster if the virus took hold in there.

Face-Timed my daughter, who is struggling to entertain a bored toddler. They did some painting yesterday for the new Nightingale emergency hospital in London. A request had gone out on social media for some rainbow paintings to brighten the place up. The rainbow has become the kids symbol of the virus. Painted pictures of rainbows are on display in windows all over the village and beyond (I presume). The local doctor’s surgery even asked for some to display in their windows. It turns out though, that the Nightingale request is some sort of scam and they don’t want them after all. What is wrong with some people ?!?

Also Face-Timed my son in Sweden who was out SHOPPING! How very weird.

Mike did a work-out with James Haskell on You Tube. Lots of moaning and groaning and huffing and puffing.

My excitement about being on the Ocado Priority Access list was short-lived. I got a text about substitutes in my delivery and when I went online to see the details I was told I am no longer on the priority list. I am very confused. I have emailed them again to ask what is going on.

Anyway, our delivery arrived today and we are fine for a couple of weeks now, so hopefully it will be sorted out by the next time we need anything.

I went through a complicated rigmarole to cleanse our shopping, cleaning everything with disinfectant spray and taking anything I could out of its external packaging. Everything I ordered arrived except flour and red wine. Oops sorry M!

It was another lovely day and we went out on another bike ride. My knee is still sore but not as bad as it was. It’s so lovely to get out in the fresh air. Never have exercise induced endorphins been more important! We always feel good when we are out there and GREAT when we get back.

There is a house we pass, on the route we have been taking this week, that has a small army of gnomes lined up facing the road. It’s really quite bizarre. I don’t know if they’re always there or whether its just a Covid thing. I have seen gnomes in that garden before but never lined up in rows, facing the road, as they are now! Weird and a little bit wonderful!

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I’ve got a slight sore throat and headache. Pretty sure it’s nothing, and is fueled by Covid paranoia and hypochondria!

Still heard nothing from M’s consultant so we rang the GP. They had received a letter, dated the 2nd of March, explaining why his 3rd of March appointment had been cancelled, and that he would not be seen again until June. We should have received a copy but never did. It must have got “lost in the post”. Doesn’t really matter in the great scheme of things. Anyway, the GP has faxed a letter through to the consultant, saying that they would be willing to prescribe the prophylactic Azithromycin if she just gives them the go ahead. We’ve done all we can now. Just need to wait and hope it eventually gets sorted out before he gets another infection.

The daily briefing was delivered by the Health Secretary, Matt Hancock, who is back from his Covid isolation. He looks well. No sign of Boris though, maybe he’s not faring so well. The briefing was a litany of excuses and explanations as to why the testing thing has gone so badly wrong and their plans to address this. Talk is cheap, so we will see …

M took some sausages out of the freezer a couple of days ago that needed to be eaten, so we had a very “naughty but nice” dinner of sausages, potato wedges, egg and beans for him, and the same for me minus the sausages – I hate sausages, especially the smooth pale ones when you can’t tell what meat is inside them.

We went out at 8pm again for the “Clap for Carers” event. This time, as the clocks have changed, it was still light and it was lovely to see everybody. Our neighbours on the right came out too this time, loudly banging a couple of pots and pans.

We watched a movie called The Decline and gave in to a couple of tots of rum! It is Thursday after all!

 

Wednesday, April 1, 2020, Day 17, Week 3, of Self Isolation.

Global Cases 938,923
Global Deaths 47,314
UK Cases 29,474
UK Deaths 2,352

There have been 564 new deaths in past 24 hours. One of these was a 13 year old boy who died alone in isolation. Another UK doctor has also died.

All other news seems very insignificant and unimportant compared to this, so it feels very flippant just to move on and say that Wimbledon has been cancelled for the first time since the Second World War, and that Prince Charles is out of isolation after his bout of Covid-19.

On a personal note, my right knee is very sore after all the cycling. I think I’m going to have to rest it today. It’s a bit of a blow, as the walk or bike ride in the fresh air has become the highlight of our day.

But, the good news, actually fantastic news, is that a story I wrote for a competition in January, has got me through to the next stage in the competition. The competition is the NYC Midnight Short Story Competition. The story is called Option 3. I paid just under £40 to enter. It takes place over 4 rounds.

In the 1st Round (January 17-25, 2020), writers are placed randomly in heats and are assigned a genre, subject, and character assignment.  Writers have 8 days to write an original story no longer than 2,500 words.  The judges choose a top 5 in each heat to advance to the 2nd Round (April 2-5, 2020) where writers receive new assignments, only this time they have 3 days to write a 2,000 word (maximum) short story.  The judges again choose a top 5 in each heat to advance to the 3rd Round (May 15-17, 2020) where writers receive new assignments and have 2 days to write a 1,500 word (maximum) short story.  Judges select finalists and the remaining writers are challenged to write a 1,250 word (maximum) story in just 24 hours (June 19-20, 2020) in the fourth and final round of the competition.

4700 people have entered this year and I was one of 790 people who made it through to the next round! It’s safe to say I am delighted!

In Round 1, my challenge was to write a story in the Spy genre, with a theme of Mid-Life Crisis and featuring a Martial Artist. I was horrified at first, having never written anything like ths before. It came though in January, when we were in Barbados, and I spent the last few days of the holiday working on it, with lots of help and support from M and our friends. I’ve published it on here in a separate post.

There is a fair bit of interest in how Sweden is dealing with the crisis. Our son lives out there in Malmo, so we have a particular interest in this. They are pretty much carrying on as normal, and have not adopted any of the more draconian lock down measures that other countries in Europe have. They seem to be holding their nerve and pushing on down the herd immunity route, with a more relaxed approach to social distancing which relies on the principles of individual and social responsibly. But, by all accounts from our son, he’s not seeing any evidence that people are being particularly responsible. This is where the UK started a few weeks ago but seemed to lose their nerve when numbers started to rise and they saw what was going on in Italy. It will be interesting to see how it works out for them!

I did a bit of writing in the morning. Finished an article on Mindfulness for our business website. Boosted by the NYC success, I entered Option 3 into the Writers Bureau annual Short Story Competition.

I did a bit of cooking after that, rustling up some cheese and onion scones with some old pasta flour that I found in the back of the cupboard.  I used up some tomatoes and left-over mascarpone to make a creamed tomato and chorizo soup. Not a bad effort, even if I say so myself!

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This afternoon, we were reflecting on lessons we have learned so far from all of this. A big one is whether we should plan ahead as much in the future, and maybe be a bit more spontaneous, even if it does risk not getting tickets for things. We actively decided this year to get a few short trips and events planned out, and now they have pretty much all been cancelled or postponed. These included:

  • Tickets for the Nature Valley Classic tennis tournament in Edgbaston
  • Tickets for West Indies v England cricket at Edgbaston
  • Tickets for the Mostly Soul and Jazz Festival in Mosely
  • Tickets, flights and accommodation for the European rugby finals in Marseille

I had every intention of going back to my desk after lunch, to work on the next chapter of Wait for Me, but it just never happened. I phoned my sister and then my mum, they’ve had a case of Covid-19 in their building, and Face-Timed my daughter, being stuck in the house all day with the kids is driving her mad. A couple of friends, that I haven’t seen for a while, passed the house on their daily walk so we had a doorstep chat – keeping 2m apart of course. I went out to the doctors to post a repeat prescription for my shoulder painkillers through their letterbox, and stopped on the way to have a chat to my friend on his second floor balcony.

And so, the afternoon just slipped away …

We’ve got in to the habit of sitting down to watch the news everyday around 4 or 5pm. They have an extended programme every afternoon that wraps around the daily government briefing.

The briefings are becoming a bit monotonous now. Ministers and civil servants from further and further down the food chain are being called in to deliver the briefings, as the others fall prey to the virus. Today we had Alok Sharma, Business Secretary and MP for Reading, who had the charisma of an algebra textbook, and Yvonne Doyle,Medical Director and Director of Health Protection for Public Health England, who was a bit like the proverbial “rabbit in the headlights.”

You have to feel for them. There is a growing uproar about the lack of personal protective equipment for healthcare workers and the chaos around testing. The questions from journalists felt increasingly confrontational and their responses increasingly insufficient. I once did a course on Media Communication for Public Health Professionals, where they taught us to always have three things that you want to say, and to say them irrespective of what questions you are asked, even if it means repeating yourself. There is a lot of that going on at the moment!

M cooked dinner – meatballs in a ratatouille style sauce. Very nice! We watched a movie called Uncorked and a few more episodes of Kingdom.

No news from M’s consultant yet – still waiting to speak to her about his prophylactic antibiotics. It’s obviously, and completely understandably, not a priority for her in the current situation. Worrying and frustrating for us but we just have to be patient and think about all the people who are way worse off than him at the moment.

 

Option 3.

Today I had some great news! My first ever smidgeon of success as a writer.

I entered the NYC Midnight Short Story Competition this year and my Round 1 entry was 2nd in my category! This is my story:

Option 3.

Leo was tired. Tired of hiding. Tired of being constantly on the move. Tired of always having to be alert, watchful, ready. Tired of not having a place to settle, to call home, to rest for a while. Truly rest. Not just lie down for a few hours, fully clothed with one hand on his gun. That wasn’t rest. He couldn’t remember the last time he got undressed, got into bed and slept soundly, all night.

But, most of all, he suspected he was growing tired of killing.

He sat in a low deck chair on the roof of the narrow boat nursing a mug of hot, strong coffee. It was just after 4am. He’d been awake since 3. The full moon cast a rippling ribbon of light along the dark, smooth surface of the canal. The trees and bushes along its banks, dark silhouettes against the luminous night sky. A light breeze coaxed the water to lap gently against the side of the boat. The only other sounds were the occasional calls of night birds and the rustling of small creatures rooting in the undergrowth.

A blanket draped loosely around his head and shoulders. The folds of the fabric trapped the steam rising from the mug and bathed his face and hands with warm moisture. He sighed, relishing the tranquillity of the moment. He was unusually relaxed, his gun resting lightly on his lap under the blanket. But Leo was never completely relaxed, his senses always alert to anything out of place, the faintest sound, shadow, or small waft of air.

His mind kept drifting back to his last job. How close it had come to going wrong. Very, very wrong. He was good at what he did. Clinical. Always had been. That was why he was so much … in demand. It wasn’t like him. It troubled him. He was confused.

A trained and highly skilled mixed martial artist, he relied on his hands to do most of his dirty work. They were lethal, fast, silent and clean. Garottes were slow. Guns were noisy. Knives messy. Attracted too much attention. Created too many possibilities for being traced, tracked, followed.

The job had been in Addis Ababa. His mission had been to gather intel from an OC HQ. It had gone to plan until he’d encountered a meaty SG blocking his escape route. He shouldn’t have been there. Leo had done his recon. The guy was having a sneaky smoke away from his post. Leo was behind him. It should have been easy. A couple of taps to key pressure points and the guy went down. One twist to the neck and it would be over. But, Leo had hesitated. Only for a nanosecond. But it was enough. Enough for the guy to cry out, before Leo finished him. Enough to trigger raised voices and footsteps running in his direction. He only just got out.

Now, thinking back, he realised these feelings had been developing for a while now. Imperceptibly creeping up on him from a place he hadn’t known existed. Surprising him at the most inopportune moments. Causing him to think twice. To make mistakes.

As a young man he had studied many martial arts. Krav Maga in Israel, Vale Tudo in Brazil, and Kung Fu in China. However, increasingly, in the past few months, he kept thinking about his days in Japan where he trained in Aikido at the Aikikai Foundation in Tokyo with Doshu Moriteru Ueshiba, the great grandson of its founder, Morihei Ueshiba. He studied the teachings of Morihei and his religious mentor Onisaburo Deguchi. Their philosophies centred around universal peace and harmony, the attainment of a personal utopia, and love and compassion for those who seek to harm others. For Leo, it had taught him more about evasion and defence than any other discipline he had mastered. He hadn’t bought in to the peace-loving ideology, but recognised that his time there had been one of the most fulfilling periods of his life.

The words of his teacher, Moriteru, kept echoing in his head. Love your enemy. Do no harm.

***

Leo eased himself silently in through the window. He carefully released the line he had used to lower himself from the roof terrace and watched as it recoiled with a soft hiss. The large, opulent bathroom was bathed in the green glow of his night vision goggles. He was at the south end of the building. His target was in the master suite at the north end.
The house was silent. The bathroom smelt of vanilla and lemon. The door was ajar, as he had expected. He pushed it open and looked down the long hallway. He knew from his recon that, apart from the nanny, this floor was exclusively occupied by the family.
Seven doors. Three on his left, the boy’s room, the nanny’s room and a linen store. Three on his right, the girl’s room, another bathroom and a study. At the end, facing him was the door to the master suite. All doors except one, the boy’s room, were closed.
He moved silently down the corridor. He paused to look into the boy’s room. A child lay in the bed, his tousled mop of dark hair, stark against the pillow even with the night vision. His small features, relaxed in sleep, a mask of innocence.

Leo felt a pang of remorse for what he was about to do.

Love your enemy. Do no harm.

Not now, for chrissake! He shook his head. Get a grip man! Now unnerved and angry with himself, he carried on down the corridor. Outside the master suite he took a small cannister out of a loop on his belt and sprayed both door hinges. He eased the handle down and opened the door.
Two figures lay on the bed, their limbs intertwined. The woman stirred in her sleep and rolled away from the man to face Leo. The sheet fell away to reveal one small round breast. Leo noted that the nipple was dark, erect and perfectly positioned in the center of the breast. He looked away.
He moved around to the other side of the bed to where the man was lying on his back. This was going to be straightforward. A sharp knock to the pressure point on his temple to stun him, followed by bilateral pressure to the carotids would kill him in less than a minute. Lethal, fast, silent and clean. His trademark kill. He rapped a spot on the man’s temple with his knuckle. His jaw slackened and his breathing deepened. He was out. Leo positioned both hands over his carotids.

Love your enemy. Do no harm.

Shit! He was losing it!

His hands hovered over the man’s throat. His mind was racing. He couldn’t do it. An image of the sleeping boy flashed through his mind. The woman’s breast. In what felt like minutes, but was probably less than one, his brain whirred through his options.

Option 1. Kill him. Job done. Get out.

Not an option anymore. He couldn’t do it.

Option 2. Don’t kill him. Abort mission. Walk away.

But they’d just send someone else out to do what he couldn’t.
Then they’d come after him.
He could go off grid and lie low.
But they’d never stop looking for him.
And he’d be out in the cold.
Unprotected.
Eventually others would come too.
He’d be on the run, hiding, forever.

Option 3.

There was no Option 3.

He sensed another presence. Just a small rustle and change in air pressure. He looked up.
A tiny boy with a mop of dark, curly hair stood in the doorway.
The boy’s arms were outstretched. He was pointing a small gun at Leo. He gripped it with both hands to steady his aim. He seemed unafraid. His dark eyes were cold.

Leo instinctively went for his own weapon then stopped. He took a step away from the bed and raised a finger to his lips. The boy took a step forward and adjusted his aim. He knew what he was doing. He’d clearly been trained. Leo allowed himself a moment to reflect on the tragedy of this.

A small red light wavered over Leo’s left nipple. He looked down at it for a moment.

Then, in one rapid movement, he shifted back around the bed to stand face to face with the boy.

The boy faltered. Fear flickered across his face. His hands shook. The red light moved around crazily. It jerked and spun around the room. The boy tightened his grip on the gun. He didn’t make a sound. His dark eyes never left Leo’s face.

Leo let him settle. Waited until the light hovered over his left nipple again.

He stepped forward.

The boy fired.

Leo felt the bullet hit his chest. There was heat and light, and he dropped to his knees. A coldness spread through his body from his chest to his abdomen, flowing out to his arms and legs, his fingers and toes. His head drooped on his chest.

He was vaguely aware of what was going on in the room. The woman, naked and screaming in the doorway with her arms around the boy, who was now crying. The man, also naked, fumbling to turn on the light. Pulling his own gun from the bedside cabinet.

A rough kick knocked Leo onto his back. The man stared down at him. His face contorted with rage.

Leo was tired. Tired of hiding. Tired of being constantly on the move. Tired of always having to be alert, watchful, ready. Tired of not having a place to settle, to call home, to rest for a while. Truly rest. Not just lie down for a few hours, fully clothed with one hand on his gun. That wasn’t rest. He couldn’t remember the last time he got undressed, got into bed and slept soundly, all night.

Leo closed his eyes.

Tuesday, March 31, 2020, Day 16, Week 3, of Self Isolation.

Global Cases 861.113
Global Deaths 42,382
UK Cases 25,150
UK Deaths 1,789

381 deaths in the last 24 hours, one of whom was M’s distant cousin. Biggest number so far.

I felt a bit down when I woke up this morning, but I dragged myself into the office and wrote my diary. I tidied my desk, phoned my Mum and wrote a to-do list for the rest of the day. If reading this is like watching paint dry, just imagine what it’s like living it?

The news is all about ventilators, testing and the lack of personal protective equipment for our healthcare workers on the front line. What’s going on? They can build massive new field hospitals all over the country, build thousands of new ventilators, and introduce financial support packages, the likes of which we have never seen before, but they can’t get our doctors, nurses and carers the basic equipment they need to protect themselves from infection, or test enough people to be able to manage this fight effectively.

On testing, our case fatality rate is working out at about 7% at the moment which is way higher than the suggested 1%. Of course, that’s because our denominator is rubbish and probably at least 6% smaller than it should be. An early “rough and ready” trial suggested that 85% of NHS staff, self-isolating at home because they or a family member had symptoms, tested negative and could have been at work all this time! I despair!

The GREAT news of the day was that M’s sputum specimens came back clear from pseudomonas! YEYYYYYY! He is now ready to start his long-term prophylactic antibiotics – if he can just get through to his consultant to issue the prescription. That’s proving a challenge at the moment, for obvious reasons. I just hope he gets it before he gets another infection. I know there are other big problems and pressures on the NHS right now, but if he gets another infection, or has to go back on the inhaled tobramycin, it will put even more pressure on the system. Fingers crossed we’ll hear back from them tomorrow.

There’s also a lot of talk about the loss of smell and taste as a symptom of the virus. In lots of younger, fitter people this might be their only symptom and they are happily going round spreading the virus because they don’t know they’ve had it. The sooner we get the antibody test, the better, in this respect. We could have had it and not know, and are locking our selves in the house for 12 weeks for no reason! Unlikely of course, but not impossible.

My friend and fellow writer, A, turned 70 today. She celebrated quietly at home with her husband (as if she had any alternative). I sent her an ecard and one of our friends bought her some gifts on our behalf and left them at her doorstep. A is also a brilliant proof-reader and editor. She is currently working on my novel, Wait for Me. I finished it in 2015 but have learned so much about writing since then that I want to re-write it. I’m doing it a chapter at a time and sending them to her as I finish them. On Chapter 4 of 15, at the moment.

We went on a bike ride, cooked dinner and watched War of the Worlds (the new series on Fox) and Kingdom (the 15th Century Korean zombie series).

Before I went to sleep I checked on the Ocado website again to see if I could get a slot. BOOM! Straight away it came up saying that we have Priority Access! There must be a register somewhere that they can check for “very vulnerable” people. Anyway, I’m well impressed! Placed an order for Thursday evening.

All in all a very good day!

 

Monday, March 30, 2020, Day 15, Week 3, of Self Isolation.

Global Cases 787,438
Global Deaths 37,846
UK Cases 22,141
UK Deaths 180

So, they’re saying that the deaths rates are stabilising. We have been on a steady 200’ish for the past few days. Will this stop it though, or just drag it out? I suppose dragging it out is what they are aiming for to prevent overwhelming the NHS.

It’s really proving hard to get an online shopping slot. As the word it that there is wait of a few weeks for a delivery, I thought I’d plan ahead and get one in, well in advance of when we will run out of things. We have already run out of fresh vegetables. I’m going to try and get these from the butchers again. They have been brilliant and they know us too. If I phone between 1 and 3 and place an order, I can collect it the next day.

All the other online delivery services say they are prioritising vulnerable people. How does that work? how do they know you are a vulnerable person? How do you access priority delivery slots?

It seemed like time to find out why M never received a “very vulnerable person” letter. Maybe that’s the key to unlocking all these priority services? I rang the GP and was asked to email the practice manager with the details of his condition etc. 5 minutes later he got a text telling him he is a very vulnerable person and that a letter is in the post. We will wait in anticipation to see what that brings.

Horrible dull, rainy day. Neither of us felt like going out so I did 30 minutes on the exercise bike while watching the Great British Menu.

EasyJet have announced that they have grounded all flights which promoted me to try and get in touch with Ryanair again. Very unhelpful and, frankly, rude interaction.

“Because your flights have left already we can’t help you.”

“But we tried to change them before they left. Because we had checked-in they were locked. The website advised us to contact someone to unlock them. We couldn’t get through to anyone by email, phone or on-line chat.”

“Unfortunately, because your flights have left already, we can’t help you.”

“But that’s not my fault, I did everything I could to contact you before they left. I even submitted an online query/complaint, dated before they left, as evidence that I had tried to contact you.”

“Unfortunately, because your flights have left already, we can’t help you. Is there anything else I can help you with today?”

!!!!

We still have EasyJet flights booked for May. If we want to change them without a fee, we can do so until tomorrow. Trouble is we don’t know when the rugby will take place now, if ever. So when should we re-book them for? I’ll have to make a decision on that tomorrow.

On a cheerier note, M had a go at making bread today with the flour F got us. Brilliant result!

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Mindful Chef box arrived with four meals this week, so dinner’s sorted until Friday.

My internet is still playing up! Very slow and dropping out all the time.

The days seem very long when I look back and try to recall what happened, but they also seem to go by very quickly. I’ve not once felt bored or had nothing to do. In fact, sometimes I don’t seem to be able to make the time to do what I said I would do each day. What does that mean?

In the evening, I tried out my first virtual choir session between 8 and 9. I’m in a Pop Choir and we usually meet on Monday evenings. For me, sadly, it just didn’t work and I left after half an hour.

First, my internet kept dropping out and the screen kept freezing. By the time I reconnected I had no idea where we were. So, I switched over to my phone and 4G. Better, but by now I had no idea where we were. Also, getting the phone in the right position was a challenge, especially when the battery ran out and I had to plug it in. Looking down at it, as it lay on my desk under the constraints of the charging lead, was not great for my self-esteem. Seeing my saggy features and droopy neck hanging down over the screen was bad enough, but the thought that this was the view of me that everyone else was seeing was way too much!

It wasn’t just that. It was hard to sing on your own when learning a new part.  Usually there is an element of safety in numbers, when you are surrounded by others singing the same part as you. Having heard my part once I subsequently had no idea if I was singing the right notes or not.

I’ll have a practise in the week and get myself set up better next Monday.

We had salmon and pesto bubble and squeak for dinner. After the failed attempt at virtual singing, we watched the series Ozark on Netflix. It was so gripping we watched all the remaining episodes and stayed up till way after midnight! Wow, dirty, dirty stop-outs!

The news is getting very monotonous now. Nothing really new to say or to hear. There was an interesting story about some of the police being a bit “over-zealous”. Could explain my sister’s experience the other day, which did seem a bit harsh.

The Jack Grealish story has made the national news and he’s issued an apology.

I’ve decided to go alcohol-free Monday to Thursday from now on. Trying to curb some of the unhealthy quarantine behaviours.  Succumbed to a small Bailley’s last night. Does that count? It’s more like a slightly alcoholic dessert in my mind.

My friend is still struggling with the virus. Every time she feels better she gets worse again! Worrying times!

M heard about the first death in our family. His cousins son died last night. His cousin, M, is an elderly lady with dementia, who lives in Barbados with her husband, E. Their children all live in the UK. E reached out to M last night when they heard that their eldest son was dying in hospital form the virus. He passed away during the night. We don’t know the man who died, but we do know his parents. So, so sad to know that they are in such pain on the other side of the Atlantic with none of their family with them.

 

Sunday, March 29, 2020, Day 14, Week 2, of Self Isolation.

Global Cases 731,446
Global Deaths 34,655
UK Cases 19,522
UK Deaths 1,228

I’m very conscious that these posts are in danger of being even more uninteresting than I imagined they would be when I first started this!

Nevertheless, I’m going to persist because, as I’ve said, this is not so much about writing to entertain, but writing to record.

I’m also having trouble posting because the internet is playing up.

M organised another yoga session by following a supposed beginners class on You Tube. Bloody Hell! It made me feel like a stiff, fat old woman, which is fairly accurate description of me, but I don’t need to be reminded of it in such a painful and humiliating way!

Needless to say, I gave up after five minutes and did some housework instead. Cleaned the spare bathroom and hoovered the second flight of stairs. That got me puffing, panting and perspiring far more than the yoga did!

Spent the day doing the usual COVID things; reading, writing, talking to friends and family, watching the BBC news on TV, cooking, eating and drinking. I’m less and less motivated to do anything worthy or important, like work or household chores.

Highlights of the day were our bike ride, followed by Sunday lunch.

We did a longer circuit today – just over four miles. Building up slowly. It was cold today! Cold fingers and cold wind headache, but still enjoyed it. I really hope they don’t stop us being able to go out an exercise. There is still talk of stricter measures.

Sunday lunch was Roast Pork, Roast Potatoes and Broccoli followed by Delia Smith’s Self-Saucing Citrus Pudding.

Todays TV included lots more Ozark and Race Across the World.

Big news was that this could go on for 6 months.

A consultant died of the virus in Leicester. Three doctors have tragically died now. In complete contrast the police had to break up a karaoke party in Derby of 25 people! #COVIDIOTS.

Italy and Spain are still going through the worst of it, with 756 and 821 deaths respectively in the past 24 hours.

Oh, and Jack Grealish, the Aston Villa captain, crashed his gigantic white Discovery into some cars and vans in our village. He was apparently the “worse for wear”. We know on one the guys who’s van was written off. #covidiot!

 

 

 

 

Saturday, March 28, 2020, Day 13, Week 2, of Self Isolation.

Global Cases 665,985
Global Deaths 30,935
UK Cases 17,089
UK Deaths 1,019

We decided to have a fairly lazy day today, to make it feel more like a Saturday. We stayed in bed late, reading and writing. I made us breakfast in bed.

My daughter dropped off the shopping she picked up for us yesterday. She had added a surprise mango!

I played for a bit on my PS4. My Play Station is my slightly embarrassing, guilty pleasure. I’m easily bored and I find it more absorbing and more interactive than watching TV. I first got into it 20 years ago, when my son introduced me to Tomb Raider, and I still only play this type of game. Big worlds, big stories, missions, puzzles etc. I hate driving games, football-type games, and fighting and shoot ’em up games. My favourites are the Assassins Creed series and anything apocalyptic or zombie related. The Last of Us was my absolute favourite of all time, and I can’t wait for the sequel to come out in May. I’m almost finished Assassins Creed Odyssey.

Very indulgently, we watched a movie in the afternoon. We watched Joker, the DVD my friend dropped round during the week. Very, very good. Very dark but brilliant. Joaquim Phoenix was fantastic. By the end I was feeling as though the Joker and his underclass followers were the “goodies” and batman and the privileged were the “baddies”.

We went for another long walk in late afternoon.

The news is all about Italy and Spain still, where deaths rates are truly terrifying. We are waiting to see if this will be us in a couple of weeks time.

Daily briefing was all about further support for businesses and the relaxation of some competion and insolvency rules and regulations.

My sister was stopped by the police today in Harrogate. She lives 15 minutes outside the town, and was driving in to get my dad’s prescriptions sorted out. Her 22 year old son went with her for the drive. He didn’t get out of the car. On the way home they were pulled over and given a serious reprimand for having more than one person in the car. Apparently, only one person is allowed in a car at a time, unless it is for a valid reason. This does not include shopping!

I didn’t know this. I’ve seen loads of cars locally with two or three people in them. Maybe the police in Yorkshire have got less to do and are dealing with different problems than the police in Birmingham and the West Midlands?

For dinner, I cooked a couple of lamb chops and made some pepperonata with what was in the fridge. Made a couple of delicious mango daiquiris with the mango!

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Friday, March 27, 2020, Day 12, Week 2, of Self Isolation.

Global Cases 598,318
Global Deaths 27,373
UK Cases 14,546
UK Deaths 759

So, today saw an extra 181 deaths in the last 24 hours in the UK. The words just trip off the tongue but the meaning behind them is deeply disturbing. Italy saw 919 deaths in the past 24 hours. 919 in 24 hours! It prompted me to have a dig around in the numbers on a website my sister recommended, worldometer.

USA are leading the way with the number of cases with 104,126 followed by Italy with 86,498.

China sit third at 81,340 followed by Spain with 65,719, Germany with 50,871, France with 32,964, Iran with 32,332 and the UK with 14,543.

In terms of deaths Italy is way ahead with 9,134. There is a serious catastrophe occurring in that country. I can’t imagine what they are going through.

Spain is next with 5,138, then China with 3,292, Iran with 2,378, France with 1,995, the USA with 1,69 and then the UK with 759.

If the deaths in relation to the cases don’t make sense, it’s all about the testing. The UK has been lagging behind the rest of the world in terms of our testing. Rough estimates suggest that if you use the death rate and multiply by 1000 you will get a better estimate of the actual number of cases.

So – I did a little bit of playing around with the numbers:

COVIDWhat this shows is the populations of the countries expressed as millions.

The number of deaths in each country and the death rate per million.

An estimate of actual cases based on death rate x1000

Estimated cases per million population

Reported (tested) cases and reported cases per million.

So, what does it tell us:

Death rates and estimated cases are really high in Italy and Spain.

On the other hand rates in China are surprisingly low. Is this because they locked down so quickly and prevented spread? Have they underreported? Have they got more to come when it hits the rest of the country?

More importantly, what is coming our way? Italy is at the peak now and the numbers are terrifying.

We are currently converting exhibition centres like the ExCel and the NEC into giant hospitals with thousands of beds and oxygen and ventilators. Birmingham Airport is being set aside for an emergency mortuary!

The big news is that the PM Boris Johnson and the Health Secretary Matt Hancock have tested positive and the CMO Chris Whitty is self-isolating with symptoms.

On a personal note, I had a good night sleep again. Might be calming down about our new normal way of life.

Did a bit of writing and reading. No yoga today as  M had a virtual coaching session for most of the morning. Steady stream of remote social interactions today. FT with son from Sweden. Constant phone calls from my daughter who was doing a shop for me in Waitrose. More about that in a bit. A friend dropped of The Joker DVD for us to watch over the weekend. He dropped it on the doorstep and I disinfected it and washed my hands of course! We had a brief chat 2m apart. I hung a bag of novels on the fence for another friend to collect. She’s desperate for more things to read and I had loads of books that I have finished on the bookshelf. We had a chat 2m apart when she came by to collect them. No bike ride today but we went for a walk in the afternoon. It’s going to be the last sunny day today for a while.

About my shopping list for my daughter. I gave her a list of things that I couldn’t get (or carry home from) at the local shops or on Ocado. Apparently, she and her brother were hysterical when she read it to him.

“Mum’s COVID-19 Essential Shopping List:

San Pellegrino Water

Pearl Barley

Cans of Diet Coke and Sprite

Bread Flour

Rapeseed Oil”

I can’t understand why they found it so funny. Oh well, at least it entertained them for a minute or two.

I have been cooking a lot and baking too. Food has become very important. Might need to calm it down a bit though as my jeans are feeling a bit tight today. I need to wear them more instead of the indoor obligatory loose fitting track suit trousers. I haven’t dared get on the scales. It would be very ironic to survive COVID-19 and die of a stroke or a heart attack!

Talking of food, cooked an amazing Halloumi Tikka Curry last night with spiced cabbage and onion biryani! Yum. We watched the new season of Ozark before bed.

I did feel a bit achy with a slight sore throat before I went to bed – I’m sure its hypochondria though …