I’m writing this late today as I’ve been busy. So, I have two lots of numbers to report. Yesterdays death rate was 828 and today’s is 763, so things do seem to be moving in the right direction at last.
The shocking numbers are those that we are hearing about from Care Homes, where it’s thought that deaths have doubled overnight from around 1000 to 2000. 1000 of these are thought to have occurred over the last 5 days.
Its all about PPE. Not enough to go round, shipments going astray and some even being shipped out of the country to other places!
More issues around access to testing for key workers.
The New Way of Life
I’ve been really busy working on my biography project yesterday and today. It’s going really well and while I’m in my flow I want to try and press on with it.
I read a little bit in the afternoon and had a doze on the sofa, I was so tired after my bad night the night before.
M cooked hake for dinner and we watched the end of DEVS.
We had another “incident” of discovering people we know have broken their lockdown. I am surprised by the strength of my emotional reaction to hear about things like this. It really upsets me. I was tossing and turning for ages before I fell asleep thinking about it and it was the first thing that came into my head when I woke up this morning.
M seems much more able to tolerate it than I am and doesn’t seem to understand why I get so frustrated about it. When I think about it, neither do I. I’m usually the one that’s saying to him “You can’t control other people’s behaviour, only your own.”
I think for me it is about a number of things:
- a selfish fear that our own situation will be prolonged if there is a second wave
- a strong sense of unfairness that some people are toughing it out in really difficult situations and making big sacrifices, while others are not
- a feeling of disappointment that we are not really all in it together – only some of us are
Anyway, it’s just making me fed-up fretting about it, so I’m going to try and let that one go now and juts ignore the people who choose to do what ever they want.